journal-08/24/99

08/24/99

All at once everything you've just started to believe in caves in around you. This might as well be a Monday.

You start to question the things that used to be a part of your life every day. You wonder why you ever believed in the first place.

You ask why. Why must these things happen to you. Life has turned into a sickening soap opera, and you want out-- it's too much for you to handle. You feel like you can't breathe from one moment to the next. Your chest aches.

I am the witness to terrible occurrences. My best friend here just told me, with tears in her eyes, that she and the love of her life broke up last night.

I'm at a loss. They're so in love. I don't know the details-- I only know the headline. I haven't had a chance to read the story yet, haven't had the chance to read between the lines.

A coworker lost a good friend to a motorcycle accident-- and only two weeks before, her sister had a miscarriage.

Tragedy strikes at the most unexpected times. Just when you get comfortable with the things going on in your lie, something happens to turn everythign you know upside down.

But I still believe-- I believe that you're never given more than you can handle. The things that happen in your life make you a stronger and more complete person.

Right now I need to be strong for those who can't be strong for themselves. I can help-- I am in the position to "be there..."

So I am here.

Use me.